Good morning!

Well I am noticing only after that my posts aren't posting so there are missing posts. I apologize and will make sure that they post.

So today we start! I have finally broke through the 300's. I am starting off with 299.8. Morning start is fantastic!

Today even though it is raining here in Vancouver we will get out to enjoy the day. Then some house cleaning and figuring out reviews. And getting the papers organized that I promised months ago. :p

So breakfast was 2 slices of low carb bread toasted up with pumpkin butter and berry jam. Yum! Bit high in the carbs but it is going to be a long hard day so I will burn through it all in no time.

Slapping my own wrists!

So this last month has been quite the adventure. I have fallen in love and been out of the house with him for a month now.

I have been had with my eating habbits but bow I am back on track. I will be getting back to where I was, but with a change. I will have reviews of products and I will be pushing all of us to get out more. I am rebalencing my life. I am dating and thus out more so I will also provide good alternatives.

Now as you know I have been bad at keeping up with my posts. Well I got depressed. Non of my friends wanted to follow or join and the company I emailed hadn't gotten back to me, and then of course life bites you in the butt. So I have been letting that get to me. No more. My boyfriend is willing to try a modified low carb diet and try my cooking and baking. No one else really cared. So with his support we start again.

Tomorrow will be busy as his aunt just passed on Friday. Tomorrow is the funeral so busy day. I will post food and events and how to work within stress. And again please follow if you read.

Have a good one guys!

Soup tonight!

So I am having some chicken soup tonight. I am using angel hair pasta from Dreamfields pasta. If you don't have a good substitute make it a loaded soup and turn it into an egg drop soup. :)

Anyways not much today I'm not really hungry as I slept long today. So a nice soup while the wind blows hard and the trees whip around. I will be warm and fuzzy inside. Good night.

Birthday's!

So today I am heading out to a young man's second birthday today. If I have this right it is a friends friends son. I haven't met anyone yet so this should be good. :)

So haven't slept yet. Played some league of legends. One player is a know it all and I had to report him for harassment and foul language. :( quite a downer but tons of appreciation from other players for how I handled and that I didn't let it ruin the game :p Yay!

So off the diet a bit today. Only where I have to. But found myself starving and the coffee shop only had sweets. So I had an oatmeal raisin cookie and a Mocha. At the party I'm hoping for a veggie platter. I am using my credit card right now and I might make it to the 15th to borrow from mom. It's definately getting tight. Anyways. I'll keep you posted :)

Scheduling!

Arrgghhh! So I am trying to to find a day planner... I have no choice but to get one via the internet. Sigh, my schedule has suddenly increased. Where I thought I would do one convention and just play games, study my herbs and work on my health, I find that I am indeed wrong. I am looking at 3-5 different conventions including a craft fair ( which is not 5 or 6 tables but 500!) I am trying to stay on the diet and I am finding that I also need to have the day planner to plan meals. I am not eating as well as I would like.

So what I need to do is get ocd about things. Calendars and day planners. Most importantly I need a time schedule for things. A basic like if I were working or going to school then when I go out followed by fill in of games and various misc.

Soooo much to do. Most important thing is updating this blog. It hasn't gone where I would like, and that is no ones fault but my own. I have products waiting for review and need to finish spell checking my write ups for you guys. I think updating my laptop is in order. It can't do much but words it can do. I can't seem to plug into my phone like everyone else. To me a phone is not a computer it is a phone that can have a game or two and happens to access the internet.

Anyways, light day for food bot really hungry as I am having a couple medical issues so today was coffee and a hotdog no bun (big one not little Lmao) and dinner was borritos with low carb wraps. Splerged and had a couple rings of pineapple :D Now to figure out how to keep myself on schedule and not lose time!

Sun!

So today we started off with coffee and some sausages. Not too hungry today. Walked around for a few hours uptown, new Westminster and did some bill paying.

Lunch was tuna salad. I had that on diet bread but you can definitely have it with veggies or if you like crackers that are low in carbs. Best way to figure that out is look at how many grams a portion is. They will tell you how many pieces as well to how many carbs. If you are doing net carbs remove the fiber. Some crackers like Triscuit has two types of crackers the regular which are square and Thomas which are triangles. The Thomas are approx. 11gr per 12 pieces. This is equal to 1 per piece. Which is very good.

Still figuring out dinner but going back out for coffee. I'm thinking lake salad with what ever protein I can find a nice dressing with cheese chunks and cucumber, peppers and some hemp seeds toasted. :)

Desert will be mint parties by Russell Stovers, and either coffee or tea. Depending on my count from dinner.

The weather is so beautiful I encourage you to get out for a walk. Long or short it does not matter. Grab a friend, your child or pet. But get some sun. If you live somewhere still with snow, don't worry find somewhere like th mall or even work and walk, or do stairs. Have fun!

Phew!

Ok so I haven't updated because I was getting ready for Fan Expo Vancouver. I am my friends official helper and in that I spent three days making key chains and doing some running around for her. Now before you say anything she did a shit load of work 4 new pieces of art and Saturday and Sunday she went to get prints done while I did some set up and watched the table. I think we split the work quite well. I just can't help with the art bit since it is her stuff. ;D

So what an amazing weekend it was. I didn't get to meet any if the actors as I am broke but, and I wish I had the camera up, saw James Masters no more than 3 feet away from our table. I really just wanted to say thank you for all his work and give him a hug but sorry I can't pay for that. But no matter it was really cool to see him scoot past. I was the only one who noticed. :)

I also got to meet and hug R2-D2. He came right up to our table! I totally geeked out and am proud of it!

This whole weekend was so liberating. I let go and rejoined my peeps in geekdom and thrived on each sqwee! Never again will I allow myself to be separated from what I love.

I started this blog to help and share my love of food and gaming and to show that you can lose weight and be healthy playing games. But  I have been so run down because of life just not letting me be who I am. I have people popping up in my life just filled with drama and crap, that I seem to be lost in what they are doing. And the worst is I am spending so much time and effort in trying to fix their live so that we can do things together that mine is falling apart. No more. I don't care. If they have a problem and they are causing me problems then bye bye. I need to focus on what is happening in my life I need to lose this weight, not for health, as my health is really good, but for my confidence. I feel that since I am fat I can't because people see me differently. I don't want to be a size 0, I just want to be size happy. A 12-14 so I can shop in normal stores. I am currently a 24 sometimes 26 in shirt as I am well indowed. So I have a ways to Ho but that's ok. Spring is here no excuses! So enough for now talk to you guys later!